I miss my husband so much, even though I know how important what he is doing is. Since confession is good for the soul, I have to admit I spent a little time crying today, I just miss being in his presence. He is kind, funny, smart, and very hard working, and it always uplifts everyone working around and with him . His life is inspirational, and he tends to bring out the best in others, to spark in them a desire to excel in their own lives and endeavors, and to "be all they can be."
Don't get me wrong, I, better than anyone, know he isn't perfect because we have shared our minds that intimately. You know, a naked mind is much more difficult than a naked anything else to share with another. When two people can honestly know each others darkest failures, and still hold each other in the position of the highest regard of anyone in their lives, they have achieved an unbreakable relationship. It will always sustain them both in all of life's darkest hours, and when a relationship with the Creator is glue that bonds them, an incredible thing occurs. As the Bible says, "a three fold cord is not quickly broken."
However, I want to be where he is, every minute of every day, always. That isn't possible while he is doing this very important work in Iraq, but I signed on knowing exactly who my husband was, and what was required as his wife. Still... it is not an easy thing to be separated from the man I adore. Whenever I start my little pity parties the Lord quietly whispers the words he gave me in a poem. He gave them before I realized although Randy was retiring from the Army, God was not retiring him from service. The words that God gave my heart when I thought he was coming home for good now haunt me whenever I start the little pity parties.
Our good friend, Cannon Andrew White has done much to educate both Randy and I as to the significance of Iraq in world history. He also has begun to develop in us a love and respect for the beautiful people of Iraq. While the world and every pondent voices their opinion on all that has gone on in Iraq, I think God has been the one in charge of everything that happened in Iraq. In fact, I know He has. I am certain of His love for the people of Iraq. He has caused much to be given for the people of Iraq and Afghanistan. We, as the flawed people we are, think President Bush is responsible for the war in Iraq... Not so, God chooses all kings, generals, presidents, and potentates of this world for His purposes alone, and He always knows exactly what He is doing. Whether we can see it or not, His eternal purposes are moving forward precisely as He planned before He ever intended the atom and put any two of them together. So read this article from the Huffington Post with a grain of salt, remembering it is written by a mere man, while The Living God in His wisdom really directs all that goes on in the universe anywhere.